take me or leave me

I have a feeling today. A good feeling. Everything's gonna be okey.I don't know what's gonna happen, but I'm not affraid anymore. Yes, i'm a geek, but finally everything feels okey. I don't know why I'm writing this in english. I will spell many things wrong but I don't really care. But why I'm writing this in english, I actully don't know. Maybe because I met Emma today. I missed her and it was really nice to meet her boyfriend Noah. And I talked a lot of english the last five years. That was really a good practies for me. I have to talk a lot of english at my job so that's a good thing. I even made makeupconsultations in english know, and that's feels great. I'm not affraid anymore to talk english to strangers. Okey, I'm not perfect and somethimes it gets all screwd up, but they still understand. Why am I writing all this? Nothing makes sence. But I'm listning to good music and just got in the mood. I miss a lot from my life that I had. A lot. And specilly a lot of people. The sad thing is that even dough I, and maybe you, would like to have some kind of a relationship that would never work. It makes me sad. Through everything, you (with you I mean the family to..him) never did me any harm, and I miss you everyday. Five years is a long time, and it's sad that I can't have that relationship with you that I want. Like I said, I just miss you.